end week 3

Wow, this week has really been the hardest week for me on this journey. As I started, I said to myself, "get moving and pass week 3". Well the end is here in a couple of days. I may have come close so far, but that doesn't mean I have succeeded by any means. It has been so hard, to make myself do the things I could easily do during the first week. While the second week got a little worse, the third has been a brittle wall. I am making way, just not as much as I would have hoped.

Phil. 4:13

I seem to slip back into my old ways easier now, and can feel this spiritual battle bouncing back and fourth inside my skin. This Blog has been the best accountability for me, and a reason to keep going. I am not giving up this easy! Satan wants me too, and as I wrote before, I seem to be haunted by my old regrets and falling for his dark words of selfishness and worthlessness. I can say I must be doing something right to create such attention. This is a changing in my life, my spirit, my all and everything. I am becoming a new man, desiring to be like Jesus and shut down these lonely feelings and nasty temptations. I am so excited to read and study through "Screwtape Letters". It is good for us to have a bit of an understanding of the battles that continually take place in and around our lives. We have power over the enemy and we can learn how to use that power in Christ, and also how Satan seems to work.

Gen. Patton studied Rommel in WWII. He learned how he thought, and how he planned such powerful strikes against our Allies. He read his books, and studied him and his life before they met on the battle field later on in the year. I'm not saying we should get too deep into studying the devil and stuff, because I think we can go too far on those things. But, "Screwtape Letters" has definitely broadened my expectations and knowledge of how these things could actually go down. I'm anxious to learn, because I feel like I have been attacked quite a bit. But The Devil is a tied up dog. He can bark, but he cannot bite when we have the Holy Spirit in our hearts.

I'm trying my best to wake up new and pray for my day. One day at a time, a moment at a time. We never know when its our last. So, lets enjoy it and fellowship with God, and Praise Jesus because we get to live in heaven with them forever!

Phil. 4:13

Love, JARED